What I wouldn't give to know some things in life....
What was my father like and why did he drink himself to death.
What did my mother see reflected in my eyes as she hit me.
What it takes for a grown man to cry.
What it feels like to wake each morning without regret.
How it would feel to not worry about every little thing.
How to tell the sincerity of what I feel.
What truly makes someone happy.
What makes life complete.
How not to take blame for things that were done to me.
How to forgive when I only want to forget.
Damn where is the magic eightball of life?
Maybe some things are never meant to be known.